February 24, 2016

crooked


everything mends just a little bit crooked.

i lock up the doors and crack the windows open.
they cut the tree in the alley, and i knew it the morning after.
just the barren rings left behind.
bleeding sap.

bending in the garden, surrounded by the bulbs,
i hear my father speak.

the sap is healing.

i thought i was witnessing the end.
but there is some peace
in being wrong.

our voices pass in waves through the telephone lines
and i know her laugh like i know the sky.
we tell stories
like we are prophets.
and i cannot speak about her without comparing her to everything i see.
because her presence remains.

she left though.
they left.
i am a barren tree, alone in the alley.
bleeding sap.

but if you bend in the garden you hear my Father speak.

the sap is healing.

the wound closes, perhaps a bit crookedly.
and i wince at the thought of fingers
passing over that place.
but it will heal.

everything mends just a little bit crooked.

xx



32 comments:

  1. MY HEART. aww THIS is so sweet and touching and beautiful and heart-wrenching and beautiful at the same time. oh man. this is like...epic. but that's not the right word either -- this is just so inexpressibly touching to the human soul.

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  2. I can't even find the words to let you know anything. But I think it's along the lines of cold fingers and the feeling after laughing really hard and when a day goes really good and the sun is out. It's also the picture where we look like we're screaming to the sky.

    ohmygosh i just mISS YOU SO MUCH AND I NEED MY JAM BUDDY. *screams a lot and jumps around*

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    1. YESSSSSSSSSS JUST COME HERE AND WE'LL MAKE SOME PANCAKES WITH CHOCOLATE CHIPS IN THEM AND WE'LL DRIVE UP TO THE CAMP AND LAUGH UNTIL THE YELLOW WILDFLOWERS COME OUT AND THEN WE'LL SING A COUPLE THOUSAND SONGS TO MAKE UP FOR ALL THE TIME WE'VE LOST. <3 come soon.

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  3. there are no words to describe my awe and love of this.

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  4. this is killer.
    like, this could be my new favorite, and that's saying something.

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    1. i saw this and squeaked like a little pleased field mouse so thank you wow. x

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  5. Absolutely gorgeous <3 the words paint such a vivid picture.

    Ellie | On the Other Side of Reality

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  6. I love this <3 it is sweat and touching and soft. it seems to have the rhythm of song in it, too. <3

    c @ thecarabelleblog.blogspot.com

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  7. I was just sitting at the dining room table with my sister this morning, and we were talking about our favorite blogs, and I was telling her how your blog is the blog that makes me literally drop whatever I am doing and read when I see a new post pop up in my feed. Your writing makes my soul ache in a good way because it just SOOO RESONATES. You are a treasure, word maker girl. WOW.

    This one was like...I wanted to copy and paste an excerpt, but then there was another and another and eventually it just would have been the whole thing :') gracious this is pure beaut.

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    1. I had to clap my hand over my mouth to keep from crying when T read this. Because we are so far away, and yet it feels really close to your heart when you know someone read your silly words. this will be a good day now. i'm sure of it. <3 thank you.

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  8. Ahh my heart! I agree completely with Katie Emmons ^ that your writing gives a good soul ache because of how it resonates. Always get excited when I see a new post from you on my dashboard.

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    1. ohhhhh i'm so pleased that AHH can't even speak. <3 love ya.

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  9. comparing the ways of nature to the nature of humans is one thing i love reading and writing about. it puts things in a perspective that's bigger than us. almost like nature has struggles and heartache like us,
    except in a different way for they are just wood and dirt.
    while we are living, breathing, flesh with souls.
    and a Mighty Father heals us; who makes that crooked result more beautiful than the straight.

    beautiful words.
    never stop spilling your heart to your readers, dearest <3
    -eva

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    1. amen, amen. wow. this is beautiful and i'm so glad. <3

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  10. YOU! LOOK AT YOU MENDING WELL DONE MY girl WELL DONE! so young we are but look at us gravitating to our Father he won't let you stay broken and in the end I believe with all my heart we will be MUCH More than just WholE we'll be bursting at the seams overflowing. I love you I love you well done.

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    1. I LITERALLY SCREAMED YOU ARE PRECIOUS AND WONDERFUL AND WOW. i love you. i love you. i'll keep going. <3

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  11. my heart is crying under the weight of these words but the burden is sweet and these words, just incredible.

    let me take a few months to process how this makes me feel bECAUSE askjakldsakdjal i feel like a rlly strong connection to it but i can't pinpoint it to where?? i'm so confused and so at peace at the same time. i love you and your words xx

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    1. screaming. you feel words like AIR girl. <3 i love you.

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  12. OH. MY. WORD.

    don't even talk to me i cannot DEAL ♥♥♥

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be kind.

xx