June 11, 2015



i stepped forward.

i stepped forward and handed you the truth.

well, maybe i shouldn't say it that way.
i threw the truth at you. 
like a sailor to another sailor
like a man on the boat
will throw the rope
to a dying man.

you stepped backwards.

for a second,
it was like you had punched me in the heart.

because you didn't want the truth.

you wanted something comfortable,
not everything.
not the rope i so desperately wanted you to take.

and i was wrong.
i was wrong to so desperately care about you.
you did not need the rope.

you needed me to look you in the eyes
and push you off the edge
from the place we had been.

i don't just care about you anymore.
no, we are beyond that.
i love you.
and that is why

i am letting you go.

xoxo

p.s. please send up prayers for a lost boy i know who doesn't want to come home yet.
thank you, darlings.



32 comments:

  1. Letting go is hard. :( I'll pray for the lost boy.

    xoxo Morning

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    1. It truly is. *hugs* Thank you, love.

      xoxo

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  2. Like Morning said, letting go is the hardest, HARDEST thing in the world to do.
    I'm praying.

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    1. Ugh, thank you so much. *all the hugs* ♥

      xoxo

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  3. WOW WOW WOW WOW the pictures the words..................... I'll will pray for the boy who doesn't want to go home.............

    Luke 15:24

    24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.


    (yeah well this verse doesn't really apply but.... i don't even know.... too bad I like it so it's staying there)


    ❤ Arielle

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    1. THAT VERSE. IS PERFECT. I AM CRYING. God is good.

      Thank you so so much. ♥

      xoxo

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  4. thank you Adelaide for making your blog free because I think you could make us pay for your thoughts, I mean I would pay for them (if I had any money XD) so thanks for making it free and now that I have pointed this out to you............................................................... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE WHATEVER YOU DO KIND MAIDEN SPARE ME AND DO NOT MAKE ME PAY FOR YOUR BRILLIANCE. please and thank you!

    xxArielle


    see I have way to many random thoughts XD :D

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    1. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Oh my gosh. Thank you so much.

      I adore your sweet comments. ♥

      xoxo

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  5. I love this poem so much. It's so beautiful <3

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  6. i think my heart is cracked and deadeeadead

    i know these words.

    ow, ads. ow.

    please come home. please, please, please.

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    1. i know you know these words like the back of your hand. because we're soldiers, you and i. in a war, fighting for captives.

      good thing we do not fight alone, nor in vain. ♥

      xoxo

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    2. Ecclesiastes 3:7

      7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
      a time to be silent and a time to speak,

      (well.... i dont know but hope it helps :)

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  7. I followed your blog some time ago on Bloglovin, but I never really explored it until now, but WOW! You possess such a way with words! I feel refreshed now, after reading several of your posts! And this one above is sad and yet real and raw. Thank you for inspiring me!

    Hannah from Grace in Everything

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    1. Thank you, dear Hannah! This means the world to me. ♥

      xoxo

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  8. This is absolutely beautiful! My heart. <3

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    1. Thank you, Cindy! It kinda broke my heart too. ♥

      xoxo

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  9. i'll be praying, sweet adelaide <3
    this post was written beautifully. you have a way with words, and i'm so excited for all your upcoming posts xxx.

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    1. agh. Thank you, dearest Elisabeth. ♥♥

      xoxo

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  10. *feels*
    This is so good- the pictures, the writing, its just...ahhhh.

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  11. Dear Adelaide,

    I just found your blog (via the lovely Cally) and gosh. Your words and style hit me right in the heart. <3 "i threw the truth at you. like a sailor to another sailor; like a man on the boat will throw the rope to a dying man." < wow, wow, wowww. Gah. I can relate so much to this -- it's so true. May God wrap His arms around you and give you peace. Keep writing, you are a beautiful and courageous soldier.

    Love,
    Abbie

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    1. OH MY GOSH. I adore your blog, and I adore you. Thank you so much for commenting...this made my life. ♥

      xoxo

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  12. Your writing does something indescribable to the heart ♥

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  13. Praying for the lost boy.

    Your words, as always, are so sweet, Addy T. You are incredible and I am beyond the point of speechlessness. <3

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    1. You are literally my muse, man. <3

      Thank you for talking all of these things over with me, even if it's just so we can hear them all out loud. ♥

      xoxo

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  14. I will pray for the lost boy. You have a very nice blog.

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  15. You just illustrated all of my deepest fears in a poem. I'm terrified of letting go, of it all turning out to be a lie, of being abandoned and left alone. I'm a committed, loyal person who falls in love too easily and holds on too tightly.
    Beautiful words, dear.
    And thoughts and prayers for your lost boy. <3

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    1. GOSH YES. It's all so true. Thank you for being raw honest.

      Thank you, love. ♥

      xoxo

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be kind.

xx