January 21, 2018

as much of forever


i had the windows rolled down 
and you turned on the radio.
it was that kind of day where the thunderstorms
grow on the edges of the sunshine
like ripples in a pool big enough
to fill the sky. 

you had a thunderstorm in you.
the kind that blows the houses down
but really saves the flowers.

we flew up the dirt road, but i was laughing so hard
that i could barely see through the dust
because you were grinning and hollering at every stranger that would look at you.
and she grabbed the back of your seat
smiling like a firecracker
just trying to get as close to the center of the storm as she could.
she loves you.
we both love you.
we'd take the bullet meant for you.

(it's just too bad it's not the bullet 
that's been trying to kill you.)

whenever i think about happiness
it's that day.

the day with the windows rolled down
and the thunderstorm guy in the passenger seat
and the firecracker girl in the back seat
and the way you smiled at me.

stop worrying.
i'll be around to torment you 
for at least sixty more years.

i'm so bad at math. did you know that?
because you laughed and it was saying:

forever, stupid.
that's forever.
or as much of forever as i can give.

we watched the thunderstorm come in over the pine
rolling like endless ocean waves.

i'll take as much of forever as you can give me.

and the rain on my cracked skin.
it felt so, so good.

x

OKAY I KNOW I LIED BUT SUNDAY IS CLOSE ENOUGH TO LAST WEEK RIGHT?

xo
addy


22 comments:

  1. OH MY WORD. THIS IS BRILLIANT. The image in my mind right now is blissful.

    Simply Me

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  2. <3 <3 <3 <3 every one of your words.

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  3. GOSHHHHHHH.
    I want to write something like this. SHARE YOUR SECRETS. xDD
    xxxx

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    1. SECRET #1: eat UR CHOCOLATE EVERY DAY
      that is all.
      love you so much. x

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  4. mY FREAKING HEART
    why do u just know me

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  5. your words are full of so much life and depth gAH teach me your ways

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  6. OKAY WHAT. I can so imagine this in my mind...like i'm there. but wowsie. i'm trying to learn how to write like this in my creative writing class but it still sounds so forced. you are such an inspiration!!

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    1. PRECIOUS. thank you love. i'm so proud that you're focusing on the class though...writing exactly like this isn't important, but being able to communicate the deep parts of the heart always is. keep up the good work babe. x

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  7. stink i never commented on this post so i never got to read what you never said to me lololol

    these things kinda break my heart at first because i miss people a lot. but then i get over that and find that the breaking is just turning this heart into something more like His. so it's ok. x

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    1. lolios it's so true. the cracks all make up something better. loving u always. <3

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  8. this is so beautiful <3 your words are SO POETIC ALWAYS.

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    1. *sprinkles u with fairy dust* hey thanks babee. x

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be kind.

xx