as much of forever

i had the windows rolled down 

and you turned on the radio.

it was that kind of day where the thunderstorms

grow on the edges of the sunshine

like ripples in a pool big enough

to fill the sky. 

you had a thunderstorm in you.

the kind that blows the houses down

but really saves the flowers.

we flew up the dirt road, but i was laughing so hard

that i could barely see through the dust

because you were grinning and hollering at every stranger that would look at you.

and she grabbed the back of your seat

smiling like a firecracker

just trying to get as close to the center of the storm as she could.

she loves you.

we both love you.

we'd take the bullet meant for you.

(it's just too bad it's not the bullet 

that's been trying to kill you.)

whenever i think about happiness

it's that day.

the day with the windows rolled down

and the thunderstorm guy in the passenger seat

and the firecracker girl in the back seat

and the way you smiled at me.

stop worrying.

i'll be around to torment you 

for at least sixty more years.

i'm so bad at math. did you know that?

because you laughed and it was saying:

forever, stupid.

that's forever.

or as much of forever as i can give.

we watched the thunderstorm come in over the pine

rolling like endless ocean waves.

i'll take as much of forever as you can give me.

and the rain on my cracked skin.

it felt so, so good.

x

OKAY I KNOW I LIED BUT SUNDAY IS CLOSE ENOUGH TO LAST WEEK RIGHT?

xo

addy