August 14, 2017

when you go



it was like walking back into a house you once lived in,
after finding it was sold.

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i knocked anxiously on the door
and she greeted me with wide, laughing eyes.
come in. 
you used to live here?
that's incredible.
she had put pictures up on the walls, the kind with flowers and laughing people in them.
 why hadn't i thought of that?
but then, she meant to stay
and i had never felt that way.

we walked through all of the rooms,
looked into all of the corners,
and nothing was the same.
i was glad of that.
i was glad that nothing looked the same.
i was glad that i barely recognized it.

when i left, she put her hand on my arm.
and murmured
thank you.

and i heard what she did not say.

thank you for moving out
so that i could move in.
thank you for realizing that it was better
if you didn't stay.
thank you for
not coming back.

this is my home now
and you were never meant to live here.

he was waiting for me on the front porch,
and he had that lazy smile on. the one that spread over his face like 
raspberry marmalade.

you good?

i nodded.

good. you were brave. time for sandwiches.

i laughed, and we walked off, down the avenue and back to the road.
he had flowers in his pocket.
and i realized they were the last flowers i had planted at the old house,
before i left.
i pretended not to notice.
but i knew what it meant.

when you go
take your whole heart with you.

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this smidge of writing was based off of healing, and the people that help you get there.

to the girl in the middle of cutting ties: 
my darling, it's okay. 
you need to do it. 
the love of Christ is mighty, and His mercy is tender. so you are free to go.

and when you go
take your whole heart with you.

xx





20 comments:

  1. Wow this was beautiful, Addy. You are such a master. Never stop writing these lovely poetic pieces. xx

    Sophy of SophysLighthouse.blogspot.com

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  2. OH wow. this is so good. I really can relate to healing and everything you talked about. It's so important to make sure that you take your entire heart when you step away from something. It's definitely a battle to continue to force your entire heart to heal, not just the parts that are easier.

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    1. oh baby. it's so true. it's a fight, because the heart is stubborn, and it wants to hold onto the past for all that it's worth. the old home was beautiful. but the new will be better. xx

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  3. Oh my. My heart. This is so very beautiful. Please never ever stop writing poetry. Your words are so powerful. Goodness, I love this!! <3

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  4. Wow, this was so incredible. Simply fantastic! I can barely believe it. Astounding!

    Amelia xxx
    <3

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  5. well dang. <3

    Hailey
    www.haileyhudson.wordpress.com

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  6. Oh my goodness. This is so beautiful, I could cry. This is one of those that you just have to bookmark and come back to again and again, because they're just so darn good. You have such a gift.

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  7. my tears are an OCEAN BUT THE HOPE IS DEEPER STILL <#3333333333333333333333 I LOVE THIS

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    1. <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 all that luv 4 u x

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  8. WHAT THE HECK JUST HAPPENED

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    how do you write like this i would like a step-by-step guide plz

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    1. DON'T FRUSTRATE ME WITH UR KINDNESS AND UR ADORBS thanks doll xx

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be kind.

xx