March 12, 2017

a study: decay



(i dig in the soil for you
and i pick through the carbon
for the memory of your voice.)

not because i want to remember
but because i want to change.
and i know that until i dig up all the pain
i tried to bury
i will not be able to go on.

i must go on.
because decay is just the labor pain
before a beautiful morning.
i'm waiting for the moon to become full
(i'm waiting to feel full)
but the Spirit is hovering like a breath
beneath my skin
and sometimes He's so close
that my knees buckle.

(my heart is flesh now, instead of soil.
and i will dig no more graves.)

x

jessika: y u write so many sad poems
me: here have one titled death






21 comments:

  1. This is lovely. <3 <3
    Your photos are always so amazing!

    Sophy
    lavender & blue
    the inkpot girl

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  2. it's sunlight and spring over there. *snuggles into the grass*
    the flowers are sprouting, and i am reminded that beauty is created from ashes. seeds planted. things die, but new things grow.

    okay. x on to new things.

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    1. *grass snuggles you back*
      YOU GOT IT SON. new things grow.

      here it comes baby. x

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  3. this is so relatable and i can't help but love it <3

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  4. I told you to put that dumb picture of me on the next one. So you can't blame this on me at all. XD <3 <3 *sends you virtual pop tarts since you can't eat real ones*

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    1. I WAS GOING TO BUT I CHICKENED OUT BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW IF YOU REALLY WANTED ME TO. XDDDDDDD <3 *eats all the virtual ones and the real ones* toasty

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  5. "because decay is just the labor pain
    before a beautiful morning"

    Yooo. Please make a canvas print of that or something. I would so buy that. (At least a phone wallpaper?)

    Your poetry is always so stunning--made even better by the presence of God in your words. I always find Him there. That's when I know you've really got a gift :)

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    1. scream.

      if i was smart i'd totally do it. XD but i not smart. *looks around for willing volunteers*

      thanks girl. that made my day. God is crazy good. x

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    2. *awkwardly raises hand* couldn't help but notice this - i do stuff like that a lot if you're serious about that?? i would totally put that on my phone background. it's the kind of thing to see every day. <3

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    3. DUDE IF YOU WANT TO YOU SHOULD TOTALLY DO IT. BLESSINGS AND LOVES. *thumbs up forever*

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    4. email me if you end up doing it, because i totes want to see how it turns out. x

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be kind.

xx