September 24, 2016

not to change


i realized it, i guess.
that time, and being distant from everyone you had,
does change you.
i know you don't want it to.
but it does.

and you get a little quieter.
(even though you laugh harder when they watch.)

and you get a little softer.
(even though your thoughts are still sword and shield.)

and you get a little older.
(even though your eyes are younger than ever.)

and if you came to my house today,
i think you would notice.
because i did change.
it's been too quiet around here
not to change.

but if you came to my house today
(sometimes i look around the corner as if i still hope you will.)
i would put down my silence
and i would run into your arms
and i would tell you:

"this ache is the same
as it was yesterday.
and i will carry it
forever."

xx


fifteen days. it has been the longest fifteen days of my life.
i missed you all.



15 comments:

  1. this is beautiful, so beautiful. i know how it is for distance to quieten and age oneself. i am glad you are back! i have missed seeing you on my dashboard. <3

    andsowewillbethehopeful.blogspot.com

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    1. i could just give you a hug, man. thank you. i'm so glad to be back. xx

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  2. I LOVE THIS. You have some wicked talent!

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  3. this is so lovely <3 the repetition in stanzas 2-4 is my favorite part.

    evelyn clickman @ if these stars shall fall

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  4. wowowowowow. you blow my mind, supernova.

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    1. HELP MY LUNGS. that is the best thing i've heard in FOREVER. xx

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  5. dude. I feel like this was written for me or something because it hits so close and makes me want to cry and flail and ughh you're amazing. <3

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    1. ughh you're killing mah heart. thanks peaches. <3

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  6. asdfghjkl yahwidslka

    how do you do this
    howwww how ow

    <3

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    1. i have no idea
      *flaps arms like a seal* <3
      xx

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  7. Everything about this is beautiful. I wish there were more poetry blogs in the world.

    waltzandwillow.com

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be kind.

xx