June 14, 2016

hope



i stand in the sun, feeling the rocks in my shoes, and i hear the sound of a car pulling up.

i whirl around.

because if you came back, if by some strange turn of events you came back...
what will i say? how will i change what i already said?
i already said so much.
and i said nothing at all.
in four basic chords, i played every song in my heart
and sat before the Maker on a bucket.

everything feels different.

i stand in the sun, feeling the rocks in my shoes, and i hear the sound of a car pulling up.

hope is a chasm edge, full and final, but dark as pitch.
it is not the fact that i cannot see.
not the fact that i cannot know.
but i will jump.
i will be pushed.
because it is all in for the likes of us.
and hope goes so deep.

it's not you.

i grin up at the Colorado sky.
for the Maker is good
and though i am forgetful, though i never see those faces again,
i will praise Him still.
because hope is a chasm edge.

and i am falling.

xx.

lolz to the person who read this post before it was the post it is now. 
love you.




12 comments:

  1. This reminds me of shoulders by for King and country is so AJSKDKEJSISB beautiful. Agh.the scattered prayer and begging the tears to stay away is *relates* I love that part

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    Furiouseverafters.blogspot.com

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  2. thdsailfjdslfjilnkjf

    This makes me miss High School camp a few weeks ago... The details and depictions that you created are marvelous. I can almost feel the hot sun sunning my shoulders even though I'm in bed and it's almost midnight.

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  3. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH..... *dies*
    i love this. <3

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  4. ack ack that last paragraph owwwwwwwwww

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  5. Your writing is always so gorgeous, love it:) <3

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  6. Beautiful! Absolutely marvelous!!! <3

    Amelia xx

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  7. Yes to that last paragraph. He is good.

    Also, I really like your word picture of hope - it describes it so well. xx

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  8. can i marry your blog?
    pls and thanks.

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  9. You gals are just too cute. <3 And your writing . . . agh! Gorgeous, as usual!

    Sophia xx

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be kind.

xx