dear nemesis

by sis

dear nemesis,

i'd tell you about things if i got another chance.
about beautiful, beautiful things. about sunrise and warm earth and about how i learned what Love
      really looks like.

                             we'd probably argue, and i'd probably lose my temper.

i was so good at doing that.

you were so good at making me do that.

when did we change, nemesis?
was it when i noticed you were afraid? was it when we went to find something wrong in one another
                                     but we found only weariness?

we forgot to argue, and the flower of peace bloomed in this heart, but you ran from it and you ran from me.

my mother does the bills at the table.

the girl you cared about is dead.

i don't hate you.
not even the tiniest bit.

grace is broken sometimes, you know.

that's why it means something.

i'd tell you about all of these things if i got another chance.

about beautiful, beautiful things. about how i learned to love...you. even you. 

but that's just the thing.

i don't think i will.

♥

{p.s. we hit 100! i love you monkeys.}