To My Girl

Dearest Future Daughter,

This world is too big for us, little girl.

I notice it more and more. People rush all around, making you crazy with their spinning and running. The earth groans and longs for redemption. I long to put my head under the pillow and cry myself to sleep. Because I am tired.

Because I am short of heart.

But what rescued state of grace we live in.

I pray for your spirit, that unrelenting light within you, and I pray for you to know your Father.

Though you are far away from me yet, and though I do not know if this letter will ever reach your hands, I know that you are loved more than you know.

Always. Forever. A fire love that crowns the trees.

And maybe I will see your face one day, and maybe your hair will be golden and your eyes just like his.

The fruit of my struggles.

And I promise that I will learn to let go. Run, my darling, run, run, run.

Then come back to me.

Chase the light. Chase the day. Take every good thing from the world and steal them away to the hidden places in your heart where they shall glow like tears from the Moon.

Oh, precious girl.

You will be an emblem and a storm, and I will do my best to raise you like a sunrise. It's going to be hard, and slow. But at the end, we'll be bathed in light.

I'm scared right now. I'm only a girl myself.

But when you are this age, I pray you read these words and know your Mama loved you even from the beginning. And maybe you'll see that she knew.

She knew the world was too big.

But she knew that the circle of her universe was formed in light and fire by her Rescuer.

One day, you will be almost sixteen. Maybe your hair will be long, and maybe you will hate green beans. Maybe you'll read instead of doing your schoolwork. Maybe you'll run out into the night just because you want to be free.

And if you aren't any of those things, you will still be my daughter.

And I will always love you.

I promise.

♥
xoxo

p.s. details about the secret thing soon! (hint:justkiddingnomorehints)