a little phoenix

i feel like a little phoenix with dark wings

learning that it is better to be holy

than beautiful.

and now that i am burning

like a wheat field in the magic hour 

most of them slowly back up.

but some of them are laughing.

some of them catch me in their arms

and throw me towards the sky

saying

go on.

and on.

and on.

i feel like a little phoenix with dark wings.

unrecognizable.

but still the same

as my feathers burn under a sky

close to the Father.

don't cry, dearest one.

separation is the way of things.

for i am a little phoenix now,

with dark wings.

and i need to go on.

and on.

and on.

x

hopefully toby doesn't become famous because he took these and toby if you're seeing this now in the future please have mercy remember how much you love me.