August 3, 2015

a fire



if you gave me a fire, i would turn it on myself.
                                                                         and i would slowly, patiently, burn out every rotting                                      memory i've kept for too long.

if you gave me a flood, i would drown myself in it.
                                                     and i would calmly, inevitably, let the water flush out every broken piece of my heart that refuses to mend.

if you gave me a whisper, i would let it kill me.
                                                    and i would softly, gently, fall beneath the covering darkness of the words
that would be more than i could bear.



but You have given me none of these things.
and it is the nothingness in which i must find my peace.
for You were not my idol of words
but my God of silence.

these are the things which must fill me up.

silence will be my
homecoming.

xx


25 comments:

  1. AGNKWNGWAONERIGNOGTFNWONAGONWSOANGOWNGOARNGOAWRNGORANEWGOWNOAGNROANWEOGNWONGOANGRONAGORNWGORWN

    WHAT IN THE WORLD ADELAIDE THOMPSON YOU HAVE SAID EVERYTHING THAT NEEDED TO BE SAID.

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    1. AWLEIFHALWEIF. I AM ALL TEARS. thank you thank you thank you. ♥

      xx

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  2. this is amazing and heartfelt and beautiful and i love it. i too am experiencing God's silence, but i know He's still there. thanks for this, addy.

    (just a side note: i love your name. my dream trip is adelaide, australia.)

    xoxo
    ms
    The Reid Who Writes

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    1. maryyyy! ugh, thank you so much. ♥ God's silence will keep us both.

      (that is fabulous! i didn't even know there was such a place...now to go look it up!)

      xx

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  3. wow can you just post every hour please? all your posts are so deep and so good ♥

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    1. ohmygoodness stop it you are the best. ♥

      xx

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  4. "for You were not my idol of words
    but my God of silence."

    your words move me, addy <3 so much love for this posts xxx

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    1. ELISABETH you are a dream. ♥ thank you.

      xx

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  5. Addy thank you so much because I needed that so much

    oh oh even if if it's a bittersweet truth it was needed.

    thank you

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    1. it's brilliant how the bitter and the sweet compliment each other so much. ♥ thanks, darling!

      xx

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  6. Beautiful!
    I love the photography!

    xx
    Emily

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    1. *catches the sparks you leave behind* ♥

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  8. I'm left speechless, Addy. That's all I can say.
    ~ Sanjana
    peridotcove.blogspot.com

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  9. HOW DO YOU DO THIS
    i'm in love

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  10. Whoa! What a beautiful writing piece! I love "if you gave me a whisper, i would let it kill me". Something about that part of the poem is so powerful. Aaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaazzzzzing, Adelaide. Truly amazing. <3

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    1. eveeeeeeeeeeeeee! you are truly amazing. ♥ thanks, love! xx

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  11. I just. ADDY OH MA HEAVENLY DAYS. Most poetry I read nowadays seems to be so cliché, so rhythm-less but girl, you have a gift. Never stop your writing, you hear??!

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    1. OH MA HEAVENLY DAYS WHY AM I NOT USING THAT GOSH. ♥ chloe, you are my joy. thank you always. xx

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  12. WHOAWHOAWHOAAWHAAAAT. You have me flailing and making guttural noises of happiness, Addy. This is gorgeous. <3

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be kind.

xx